it's about time...

...literally--i need to post something, as it's been way too long.
...figuratively--when is it not about time?

oh how some days seem to go by so fast. blink. while others, painfully slow. but as a whole, life is just passing (rather zooming) by. i can't believe it's may! holy crap. it's all a blur of organized chaos. and granted life is good but i don't feel like i've had a moment to really savor it. so i am setting new goals.

goal one: pull over to the side of the road in the morning and dip my toes in the pacific. i love my drive (while i also hate it). perhaps i hate it because i am going to work. i love my work (while i also dislike it at times. not the work itself but the issues, the bureaucracy). i do not take for granted the luxuries i have in that 1) i can see and smell the pacific monday thru friday and 2) that i have a job. but i would like to stop and feel the sand.

goal two: breathe and not become overwhelmed by others' issues. whatever. that's been my mantra these days: whatever. as in take your effin issues and run with them. but not near me. whatever. i guess i could scratch this from my goal list; i've manifested the whatever. accepted it. embraced it. and will continue to do so. love it! i still have tendencies to become overwhelmed. whatever;)

goal three: spend more time reading the books i want. the stack is ever-increasing in size...on the coffee table, on the dresser, next to the tv (a but oxymoronic, i know). i would be so happy if i could carve the time to finish the secret history. time? what's that?

there are more. so many more. but in terms of mental health and clarity, these are the current top three.

constraints

i have been surrounded by constraints, constrictions, restrictions, and restraints lately, from laws, rules, and norms. it's driving me mad. last week i wanted to write this entry when my bra was the mad driver. but i waited, out of time constraints. and i am happy i did. today, such constraints worked in my favor when i observed an "older" woman--who i do believe nursed a child some 10 years ago--freely flapping in the breeze as she galloped along. it reminded me that though maddening, constraints are sometimes necessary. i guess she must feel similar constraints and decided to go against societal norms...to the dismay of myself (and any other observer in her vicinity).

the book cover, shown above, is a recent and timely find for the purpose of this entry...and i HIGHY recommend it to all readers.
"BREASTS" by Genichiro Yagyu

new year, new lists

it's been quite a while since i last blogged. perhaps that's a good thing. life has been pretty quiet, and to me, that's a great thing. needless to say, there hasn't been a whole lot to blog about. it's been a bit of a struggle to find things to say these days, and for me, well that's a different thing.

since the start of the year it seems as though my lists of things to do hasn't changed much in terms of goals, agendas, and the like. what i can say has happened has been a re-discovery, in a way, of the city in which i live, making me want to explore and add to my list of things to do, say on a saturday afternoon. so here are two places that i (re)discovered.

re-discovery: the arboretum. i've been twice this week, and i think the unseasonably warm (upper 80s) weather for this time of year pushed me to go back the second time. the initial draw was to see a work by an artist i have really taken an interest in over the past few years, patrick dougherty. i first saw one of his works at another botanical garden up the coast, and have been hooked.

discovery: a delicious place i found to eat called milk. yum yum! i have abandoned most of my allergy-related diet constrictions, including ice cream. though i have remained steadfast in avoiding milk as a beverage and milk-based yogurt. it's appropriate, then, that i 'crashed' at a place called milk. www.themilkshop.com try it out if you're in the neighborhood.

photo of work of patrick dougherty's 'catawampus'